My first reaction to your post was that I was put off by the somewhat rambling nature and the syntax and grammar. But, on re-reading it, I realized that you are asking some really interesting, perhaps even profound, questions. What I interpret the main gist of your post is, "How do people learn to be programmers?" I could answer by outlining my development, but there is always the somewhat trite and useless, but also profound, answer, "Everyone's experiences are, like the individuals themselves, uniquely different."

You may be the inspiration I needed to develop a web page on learning computer science.

For every programmer I have known, the first step in learning to program is to learn some programming language. I recommend getting a computer set up with Linux. That will enable you to get free software for programming. I would recommend getting Kernighan and Ritchie, The C Programming Language, Second Edition, and use it to learn C. C is showing its age, but is still the most portable language in the known universe.